I have to admit as my birthday approached this year I was full of dread and almost a sense of depression. There was going to be 365 days standing between me and my scary brithday. In my head I knew I should be happy I was celebrating another birthday. I was getting a chance so many people aren't given. So why am I complaining?
For the better part of the last week it felt like 30 was just looming over me, taunting me, reminding me I was no where near where I had once hoped I would be by this age. I mean come on 30 seems SO old! Yes I understand it really isn't but lets be honest for a minute, 30 sounds a lot older than 29. It just does there isn't anything I can do about it. Any way, I always thought I would be married with a couple of kids and in a job I loved by now. Insteed I'm single, no kids and didn't have a job. I was just going to grad school, which I realize is a good thing all in it's self but it wasn't enough to make me feel any better. Slowly I began feeling like I was pretty much just failing at life. There were a couple of nights that I was pretty low. I really began to feel as if I was on the edgeof a cliff unsure of what I was to do, or how I was to move from there.
Through all of this I continued to pray, I would pray that God would show me the path he had for me and work within my heart so I could know what he was telling me to do. So my actual birthday came and went. It was a pretty low key day, spent the evening having dinner with some family and friends and just enjoying the fellowship. It was really what I needed. I was spoiled by everyone and so grateful they took the time to out of their busy days to spend it with me.
Then today happened and I couldn't have asked for a better day. I was offered a full time job at a local apartment complex and also took on working for a vet clinic here in town a couple hours a week doing some marketing for them. I'm very excited about both of these, I feel like they are going to give me some invaluable expereince! God seems to always come through for me when I least expect it and in ways that I could never imagine. Here I was worrying about finding a job and in one day I except two. I know that I could never have imagined this, only he could have!
In about 48 hours my entire outlook on turning 30 has changed. No longer am I terrified and unwilling to get a year older but I know say BRING IT ON! This year, my last year in my 20s, the next 365 days, are going to be amazing. There really is so many fun things to be looking forward to. One of my best friends is getting married, our family will grow once again by the birth of ANOTHER boy, and several of my friends are having babies too. I really can't wait! I can tell that this next year is going to be full of God's blessings.
Now if we could just get a win from the Shockers tonight we would be doing great!!! Heading off to watch some more basketball. I really do LOVE this time of year!
Until next time...
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