Saturday, June 9, 2012

Let's Try This Again -- An Update

Wow, so it has been a very long time since I have updated this thing. Well good news is that I am still alive and my life has changed a lot since my last blog in September. It's been a long time since I have been able to say this but for the first time in four years, I can say with all honesty that the changes this past year have been for the better. Last December I made the decision to go back to school. This wasn't an easy decision since I didn't enjoy school the first time I did it. Well let me clairify that. I didn't enjoy the school part of it, I LOVED every minute of the social aspect of it! With a lot of pushing from Andrea, who actually did A LOT of research for me, and even more praying I made the decision to just do it. The weirdest part was that it all fell into place very easily, which I know in my heart was a complete God thing. It goes with out saying that I had my fears about doing this, and at times it has been hard and very stressful but I am very happy that I made the decision to do it. I took a full load in the spring semester and ended up with the best grades I have ever had in college. This summer I am enrolled in 7 hours and it is going to be a lot of work. I got an A in my pre-session so I am beyond happy about that. Currently I'm taking Econ 232, which I hate, and Cognitive Pshycology. After this summer I will have only 3 classes left to take and then I will be done!!! YAY ME!!! Before going back to school I never thought I would even consider going to grad school, but the closer I get to being done the more and more I started considering it. So after a lot of reserach done by Andrea, again, I think I have found the school that I am going to apply to. This is such an huge step for me. I don't have to apply until the end of this summer so I think that I am going to continue to pray about it and talk with my friend and family before I make the final decision. The thing that is hard for is that I'm not getting the support from my mom that I wish I was getting. Which had made the decision even harder for me. I am just going to have to trust that God has a plan for me and I will have to trust in that plan! I, also, have some how found my way back to the pool. Which is weird for me to say since after State my senior year I was very much over it and never wanted to go near trainiing again. Well ten years later it feels like I am home again. Don't get me wrong I still hate dragging myself there but once I am in the pool I am just so comfortable. There is this feeling of freedom I get when I am swimming, that I think only someone who swims can understand. It has been a very rough start and I definitly am not in the shape I use to be in, but I am starting to feel stronger each day and that is what matters in the end! It has taken me ten years to get this out of shape so I guess I can't expect to be back in shape like I was in two weeks! I would like to say that I would keep this up more than I have but your never know so I will try but no promises! Untill then...

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